Here was the first part of my story: http://www.doccool.com/discussion/topic.php?id=488
Sorry folks - changed my name on you all.
Update: L & I have been seeing each other on a pretty regular basis. New Years Eve his brother had invited me to his family's party which I went to. It was all of L's family and a lot of their friends. L was working late but I had a great time talking to and meeting everyone. For 3 1/2 hrs I kept hearing remarks (especially from his 3 sisters) that they are expecting L and his ex wife to get back together any day and it is so obvious that they are in love. I didn't say a word. I was there as a friend of the family not as L's date or his love interest or anything. One of L's brothers and one of his good friends (who walked in on us one night) know about us. Noone else in his family knows for certain but I think they suspect.
When L got in around 10:30 he called and I drove the 1/2 mile from his brother's home to his. After he had taken a shower he came walking into the living room and I asked him to hold on. I told him about hearing all the comments about he and his ex wife and I also told him that I think some members of his family have a problem with me being white. I told him that I cared enough for him to bow out of our affair/relationship so that I would not come between him and his family nor he and his ex wife.
(Read between the lines folks - I am in love with him majorly.)
So I turned and grabbed my purse and went to leave, turned back and gave him the biggest kiss and told him I know you don't want to hear this but I am in love with you. And ... I left.
About 45 minutes later I get a call from him asking me did I make it home ok - and with the police out in force on New Years Eve I hadn't as I was driving very cautiously. He told me he was not letting me bow out that he loved me too and he would call me the next morning.
He called Friday morning and told me he was off and did I want to come out and go horseback riding - so I went. We rode horses for a few hours with some of his family and had a great time. Afterwards we ate lunch he and I and then we spent a couple of hours making love which was totally incredible and no this is not the first time we were intimate. More like the 7th or 8th time.
I left and went back home and then got jumped all over by my long term partner that I am working to long of hours. You see I was at a work function New Years Eve and was working on New Years Day (wink; wink). And he does not think I want to be in this relationship. He claims I have changed in the last 6 months. My "husband" has been having dreams on a regular basis that he has died. And he tells me when he wakes up that I will be taken care of for life when that happens.
So has anyone ever fallen head over heels in love with their love affair partner? And what do you do?
I know my situation is a little bit different from most of you on here but I don't know who else to ask.